I was not prepared for weaning to be this horrible. Last time I did it, I had pregnancy hormones to boost me up. I haven’t been this depressed and anxious in a long time. My self-drive and motivation has essentially evaporated.
I started night weaning several weeks ago and didn’t think it was affecting me. Now that I’m on a business trip and going cold turkey, I’m realizing that the night weaning is the likely culprit of the insane insomnia I’ve been experiencing the last few weeks, considering Sky was doing the bulk of their nursing 3-5x a night. And now that I’ve gone cold turkey, my bowels have collapsed and I feel like puking all the time, and I’ve been getting hot flashes! And that deep deep feeling of despair. Ugh.
The light at the end of the tunnel here is that perhaps I can start sleeping normally again in a few weeks, and my body will be mine again? One can only hope.
